“Is it possible, I asked myself, that I’m being summoned from some deep and holy place within? Am I being asked to enter a passage in the spiritual life ― the journey from false self to true self? Am I being compelled to disturb my inner universe in quest of the undiscovered being who clamors from within? Am I being asked to dismantle old masks and patterns and unfold a deeper, more authentic self ― the one God created me to be?” [Sue Monk Kidd, When The Heart Waits]

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This post should come with the disclaimer to “be careful what you wish for.”

I always believed at some level that the energy we send out to the universe matters. I believed it like one would any fact; intellectually and logically. Makes sense, right? 

But when it came to living that truth, I spent much of my time worrying, doubting myself and coming up with contingency plans for events that haven’t happened yet. Essentially, I was not living my belief that energy matters. I was sending out negative energy and attracting hardship in return. 

But what if I realized I had a choice? To wish for abundance, fun, ease, love and deeply fulfilling experiences? 

When I started living from this mindset, things started to change. I started embodying courage; the courage to dream, to hope, to trust the process. To be vulnerable; share more of myself, be who I’ve always been  – goofy, dreamy, witty, playful. 

But as they say, be careful what you wish for. Once I started living in this space of intentionality, life opened itself in ways that blew me away. A domino effect took place; a series of decisions were made that changed the course of my life. Changes happened one after another – in quick succession – as if my design. 

And it all started with a fervent plea.

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“I’m longing for abundance in my life – an abundance of love, financial freedom, ease, fun, success and just living more of my life.”

A deep sense of sincerity, earnestness and emotion took over as I passionately shared this with my husband. My longing for a deeply fulfilling life has followed me everywhere this year; whether alone, out for errands or on a work trip, there’s an acute sense of time passing and the desire to make the most of it. To live freely, with abandon and in full force. 

After having shared this wish with my husband, a series of events happened that essentially created space in my life to manifest something new. The very next day, my situation at work changed in a way I didn’t think was possible. The current engagement I’m working on will come to an abrupt end, leaving space for a new opportunity to take hold. New opportunities, new people, new experiences. And growth. Taking what I’ve learned while on the current project and elevating it.  

This quick turn of events wasn’t even a remote possibility earlier. It’s something I hadn’t had the courage to even ask for, because it was so impossible. I accepted the fact that I’ll be working on the current engagement until I’m not needed anymore, maybe a year or two down the line. 

Suddenly, I’m getting the feeling that everything I’ve asked for is about to come true. With incredible ease. Dreams that I dare not admit to myself suddenly seem possible. 

The way events played out this week and the strength with which I verbalized my longing for change leads me to believe that the Universe does respond in proportion to the energy you send out. 

Maybe my longing to play big in my life is being realized. 

That the energy with which I wished for change is coming true in the most drastic way. Pockets of space are being created in my life where there was none before. 

This space – like the moving of mountains – is happening all around me in effortless ways. It almost feels like it’s being orchestrated; I’m watching one event lead to the next – unfolding into something deeper. 

This space is creating room to breathe, a sense of awe and wonder. 

My spirit tells me to surrender and allow myself to be carried by this strong current. 

Are things falling into or out of place? It’s all a blur right now. 

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A few weeks ago when I was in New York, a friend and I went to the Guggenheim. As we viewed various exhibits he poignantly reflected on the gorgeous pieces out on display. As gorgeous as they were, they were essentially frozen in time; a remnant of the artist’s interpretation and longing. Beautiful yet stagnant. 

The most precious gift we’ve been given in our lives is the possibility to manifest and change. Unlike those beautiful pieces at the museum, we are works of art that can choose how we show up everyday. We can adjust, improve, refine and move with the times. We are a living source of energy that has the ability to pull things to it, to cause events to take place and turn the tide in our favor. 

We choose how we show up. We have the ability to design our life the way we want. We are malleable, dynamic, and capable of so much. 

But it’s only possible if we express our true selves. Live honestly and wish fervently. Share the gift of ourselves to the world. 

Once we do that, there’s no telling where life will take us. 

I can’t wait to find out.